TwAAlk Positive Life Coach
I started drinking and smoking from the age of 14. I drank to black out which continued into my 20’s, 30’s and early 40’s. In my twenties and thirties, there were times of having panic attacks that effected my driving, I didn’t address this situation. One drink was never enough, once I started drinking, in my mind, I was already planning and chasing the next drink. 2015 I hit rock bottom. I suffered panic attacks, nose bleeds and felt like I was detached from everyone around me. 2015-2021, I battled on and off with anxiety, desperately trying all different techniques to try and moderate with alcohol. I went for CBT, counselling and felt no one understood me. It was an endless viscous circle that kept going round and round. I was desperate to get out of this black hole. Wine tolerance was now 2-3 bottles, I would get to the point of arguing, passing out and not remembering the next day. I thought the World and my boys would be better off without me. Life got steadily worse, then 2nd August 2021, enough was enough. Something changed, all these slips, trips and countless day ones, all the learnings fell into place.
I now accept I was a grey area drinker. I have maintained full time work and family life throughout. I read self-development books, listened to podcasts daily, drank AF options to take the edge off wanting a drink. Before long, I got my sparkle back in my eyes, life seemed calmer, all of a sudden, I was showing up consistently back doing the things I loved, enjoying family time, running, exercise and work. Top 10 wins. I am a wife and have 2 beautiful boys. I nearly lost everything.
- Consistency
- Calm
- Confidence
- Positive thoughts
- Improved relationships
- Freedom
- Energy
- Amazing sleep
- One bad day doesn’t spiral
- I now have nails
- Time
The biggest win is I’ve accepted I suffer with anxiety I have ran park run most weeks, completed 10k’s, half marathons, climbed the Yorkshire 3 peaks and loved every one of them. Raised nearly £1500 to date for MIND Charity. Celebrating after an event with a bath and nice food. Enjoying the high feeling that continues into the week ahead instead of dampening this amazing feeling with alcohol. I have invested £5k into doing a Positive Life Coach course which has been positively life changing and has been a great self-development tool. Instead of being anxious, living life full of self-doubt, negative and limiting beliefs, I am now happy and look in the mirror and like what I see. Life is exciting, calm and consistent.
Here I am talking from a good place, I have been alcohol free since 2nd August 2021. Having lived through the dark place that alcohol can take you, here I am today with the mission to help others find their meaning, purpose, positivity, confidence and feel empowered using coaching skills and positive psychology.